Loving The Urges

I wrote myself a protocol a month ago and broke it almost everyday. I had a day here and there where I followed it perfectly but gave in to most urges.
I sit down each night, do the move on sheet, rewrite my focus thoughts, watching again some videos to cement even more what I am going through and I feel I am so tensed up when I go to bed, praying that I won’t have an urge the next morning. And of course, I always have.

Is there a way to love the urges when they come or not be so anxious about them so much?