I am just going to apologize in advance for a long question. 🙂 I am new to Scholars but have been listening to the podcast since the beginning. I finally joined Scholars because while I can intellectually understand the concepts and they completely resonate with me, I can’t seem to figure out how to APPLY them in the moment. I have struggled with anxiety and depression forever, or so it seems.
When I joined Scholars, it was with the intention to use the self-study to finally lose this extra weight. Here is what happened: I started my eating protocol on a Saturday afternoon. By Wednesday morning, I was down a couple of pounds, sleeping well, and feeling proud. Then I had a major urge for a snack. I INTELLECTUALLY understood that I was having an urge, and that I could survive it, but the urge turned into anxiety about everything I could possibly worry about in my life – my daughter, my work, my marriage – then, because the extent of the anxiety felt unbearable, I gave in and soothed it. Several handfuls of Cheez-Its later (*sigh*) I felt like crap, of course, AND I was consumed by every area where anxiety resides in my life. Giving into an urge not only brought up thoughts regarding eating and weight but it opened the floodgates to everything. 24 hours later, I am still in this pit of what can only be described as despair. I know it’s about managing my thoughts, but I can’t manage all of them at once.
I have realized that my weight is in direct proportion to my anxiety. I would find this fascinating if it didn’t make me want to cry.
I look forward to your advice on how to stop not just one anxiety-producing thought, but a tsunami of them.