Mirroring my boss

Hey coaches!
So I have been learning soooo much about myself through my boss and my interactions with her.

I have been studying Eckhart Tolle in-depth and his work is really resonating with me. I used to react to absolutely everything around me, whether I interpreted it as good or bad, my reactions were strong.

A doctor once told me that this is just the way I am, I just have high highs and low lows. I accepted this as fact but now I’m questioning all of it.

Now that I’m managing my mind, the reactions are far less than ever and I’m feeling way better about life. I am wanting to open my own salon and I know now more than ever that I am truly capable. However, I am still learning about my reactions and why they occur.

I am finally accepting that my current boss is here to teach me some major life lessons. She is extremely reactive to her environment and I never know when she will be in a good mood or not.

What I’m trying to work through is not letting her volatility affect me. I know when she gets this way it isn’t really her, it’s her pain body/ego that is taking over. I still get pretty uncomfortable when she gets like this by going into panic mode and seizing up a bit in my body. It’s not nearly as bad as it used to be and I know where my reactive state stems from.

I have done all that work and really want to get to a state of peace where it doesn’t affect me at all. I know that avoiding people when they get in their heads and overreact is something that can’t be avoided.

My dream is to be an effective and inspiring leader to my salon team and I really want to get to a point of not letting my emotions get the better of me. I want to be seen as strong, confident and as someone who my team sees as a true leader who trusts in my vision to lead them. Any advice to keep me going on this amazing path is much appreciated!!!