Model Help

T: I’m not meeting expectations so I must be a bad person/not enough, and that’s bad because I won’t be loved/accepted.
F: Frustrated with myself, shame, guilt
A: Beat myself up mentally with rumination over not meeting expectations of myself/others in order to redeem myself
R: T: “Yay I’m redeemed. It’s okay that I didn’t meet that expectation because I suffered for it! Wow I must not be enough.” Self-sabotage.

I think I finally found a hidden core model. Any thoughts on how to get out of this rut?