Model need new thought idea

Hi Brooke,
As a child, I was conditioned to believe if I spend money on myself my family will suffer. I know when this belief took hold, the challenge is letting it go.
My model:
C brother says, me having a bike will cause my family to go hungry
T I don’t want my family to starve
F hurt,sad
A always put others first
R Unhappiness
Ofcourse this happened when I wad a child but it is still causing me problems. I am indecisive and a people pleaser. There is never enough left for me.

I need help with a new model something my brain will believe. A bridge thought.