Model question R line

I’m having trouble with the following model:
C Job (I don’t have)
T I deserve it
F Resentment
A Ruminate, judge those who have the same job, withdraw, see myself as less-than, gossip, complain, take pleasure in their misery, wish them ill, pit them against me, compete with them, live in scarcity
R ?
The actions don’t result in me deserving the job. Far from it. I’m not acting professionally and not thinking in a way that benefits anyone.