Model review on my ex


I am not sure if I am doing this correctly. I have been telling my ex that I don’t want to get back together, but I do admit I enjoy spending time with him and so we hangout together because I get lonely and he was my best friend. He says we don’t have to make a decision right now and just keep hanging out as friends but this situation messes with my head because at the end of the day he has stated that he wants to be with me in the future. It puts pressure on me on making a decision. Trying to do a model on this:

C-My ex and I have been spending the past few days together
T-I either have to completely cut him out of my life or decide to get back together because this isn’t fair to him or myself
A-If he asks to come over I will let him so it isn’t me the one asking, dropping him off in the middle of us hanging out bc i feel like we have been spending too much time together. I won’t want to have sexual intimacy. I won’t tell my friends that I am hanging out with him. Being snappy/unclear with him on what I want from this relationship.
R-Can’t stop thinking about what I am going to do and how I need to make a decision .