moms at school

C: moms at school are members of the local country club and they are all blonde
T: they are exclusive
F: excluded
A: want them to see the world like I do, question my worthiness, I feel jealous (maybe?), I think I’m not included
R: I exclude myself?

Our children attend a Catholic school and I get overwhelmed with thinking about several moms being clickish and in an exclusive group. I think I’m jealous of the community they find in one another, but don’t desire to be part of an elite country club. Nor do I entirely want to be friends with these said moms, but struggling to find parents I do “click” with. Help please.