I want to be a morning person. I have shame around preferring 8-10 hours of sleep and not having been an early riser for most of my life. My parents and husband (and society) tell me that productive people wake early, and I’m interpreting that to mean that I’m lazy and unworthy.
When I do wake early–normally during the summer when we have long days–I love it. Mornings are glorious, with the quiet and the light and the smell. I want to wake early to enjoy this, and take my time to do self work/meditation/gym before the normal workday begins. I am self-employed, so I have flexibility, but I find this makes it worse.
I think I have shame and anxiety from making myself wrong all these year, for the amount of sleep I need and preferring to get out of bed later than most. At the same time I want desperately to be a morning person. My question is, is it just a matter of changing my thoughts and learning discipline to make myself wake early and consistently? Should I even want to be a morning person?
Thank you so much for your help!