Mother-in-law 🤐

My mother-in-law is a rip snort!
This was one of my original thoughts plus many, many more.
I started with a bridge thought…. she has some blue Levi’s and I like the color of them. It at least kept me from hate and now the thought is… she is a human and we all make mistakes.
I really want to go to love but I keep going back to all the things she has said and continues to say and I think…. she doesn’t deserve anything nice from me.
Cause to me, if  you feel love, you show up loving and do nice things…. it’s more than just a feeling that I will get to feel…
It’s like a tug of war…
Any advice to help me get over this hump?