My job

I really hate my job. I am not a good fit for it at all. I am constantly overwhelmed and in over my head. I want to quit and move on and I just feel totally stuck. I don’t know what I would be good at doing. It seems every job I look at, doesn’t seem like I’d be a good fit for. I feel like a failure because I spent so many years trying to learn web development and maybe it’s just not for me. I’m confused a lot, I don’t know what I’m doing, I don’t know what’s going on, and I don’t know how to do this job (QA). I feel just total dread. Every morning I feel like throwing up from how anxious I get about work. I’m not sure what my question is but I’d like to get coached on this. I am aware that I’m buffering with sleep, alcohol, sugar, phone to try to escape this discomfort and the reality of my life. I think i keep waiting for me to like this job, but it’s not going away. To be honest, I don’t like it, I don’t want to do it, I want to quit, I don’t fit in, the culture doesn’t align with my values. I’ve been making myself wrong and wanting permission from others to leave. In one of my 1:1 coaching sessions, I said being fired wouldn’t be so bad. I feel like I’m finally honest with myself that this isn’t what I want to do. Can you please coach me on this?