My own best friend?

C Not so nice to myself
T Nervous energy, can’t stop high buzzing tasks thrust on me by me to accomplish more and sell/collaborate/thrive
F Agitated
A Tackle stuff, pace, eat & watch crime shows in a pile of note taking and journals
R Sad, pain body, blame self for not accomplishing an intentional model, victim of circumstances, tired and deflated

C Not so nice to myself
T Feel sorry for myself
F Sad, tired
A Prayers & Self Care
R Havening, prayers, trust, hope, ask to be of service to myself before others…oxygen mask on self & no people pleasing, take a break/give self a break

Ok, is this the most productive thing I can do today? Not sure how loving and kind this is when I still feel drained and not productive (scared of not reaching my goals)?