My Why

I set out to write a novel, currently, a scary thought, over which I buffer with eating.

Like Pat mentioned in the last call, my calendar doesn’t create inspiration in me to write. Inspiration should be something I generate with my why.

My why is that I want to be able to make a living as a writer. But my other why is that I think, the sooner I will figure this out, the sooner I will be able to leave my marriage and not depend on my husband to support me.
So one Why is positive and one Why seems negative though the thought of getting divorce fills me with hope because I see my current marriage as my prison.
Does it make sense for our whys to stem from such place if it moves us to action?