‘Needing’ as opposed to ‘shoulding’

Hi Brooke
I seem to be writing a lot of ‘I need to do….X’ in my thought downloads. Is this me just replacing the word ‘should’? Is it always a thought, not a circumstance? How do i feel less overwhelm with this neverending list of things to do?

c I need to….do my list of things today
t I have so much to do
f overwhelm, anxiousness
a start on list,
r go through life, not enjoying moments

c I have a list of things to do today
t start at the beginning, what really needs to get done?
f considered
a do what needs doing
r still get stuff done, but in a calmer manner

Thanks for your thoughts