Negative Feelings Over Protocol

Hi coaches. I’ve been seriously committing to SCS weight loss for about 6 months now. I’ve committed to making my food as un-exciting as possible with the exception of joy eats and other outstanding events. But now, when I think of my meals and how repetitive and uninspiring they are, I get sad. All of my meals have negative emotion and discomfort around them now when I think about them. I’m struggling with this. I’ve made massive changes in my life to find joy outside of eating and it’s working to some extent, but my meals are still gloomy. I’m working on accepting it, but I can’t help but feel like unhappy mealtimes are unsustainable. I’m also intermittent fasting and therefore physically hungry around 50% of the time. I don’t like it. My life feels gray. I feel like I’m the only one who has this problem in SCS. What’s going on with me? Why does everyone seem happier about their protocol than I do?