negativity awareness – yikes

My answers to the negativity podcast exercise were ridiculous. I think about my job negatively, especially in the morning, and the automatic thoughts are ‘I don’t like my job’ and ‘my job sucks.’ But then as I sat there, the floodgates opened, and none of the thoughts were even about the job. It was all thoughts about myself in that job, and they were really self-critical. I totally have believed that all those sentences are realistic assessments about myself and my strengths and weaknesses, and I almost prided myself on being so self-aware. Seeing them on paper and feeling the crap feelings they generate was a very helpful exercise for me. I can see that I’d take those thoughts to any job. Some of the thoughts overlap with conflicting thoughts that come up for me in the March homework too. I like that I’m on to them….