No Urgency

I’m finding that I create goals for myself but cannot hold myself accountable consistently to a firm deadline that’s self-imposed. I was always an A+ student and could turn in my work on time. But when it’s just me, I negotiate and do not create any urgency.
C: Goal e.g. lose 15 lbs./organize paperwork/finish a continuing ed course/ etc.
T: It doesn’t need to be done. The deadline I set is arbitrary
F: Unmotivated
A: Maybe do it, maybe not. Negotiate. Don’t always stick to my calendar
R: I don’t get things done. I make projects arbitrary
C: Goal
T: ?
F: Committed
A: Stick to the deadlines I set for myself
I can’t find a believable thought that will make me self-motivated!