is this normal-just my survivor brain on steroids?

Hi 🙂
the past few days I have been getting very clear how I want to think about my unintentional survivor mode thoughts
As well, how I want to think and behave intentionally
Today I was on track with my intentional thoughts and feelings and then kaboom I get hit with massive dark ruminating

I have been aware, I have been feeling the negative consequences of the ruminating, but I have been telling myself, its OK, its just thoughts that don’t define, me,
and I am so excited for what the future brings

nonetheless I am shot for today- as abbey says- go to sleep and reset for tomorrow

wondering what your thoughts are

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