Not being honest with myself…


So I don’t think I’m being honest with myself when it comes to my drink plan. I’ve listened to many of the phone calls and I’ve heard you tell people that if they normally drink every night then then shouldn’t try to stop drinking during the week and only have drinks on the weekend. I’ve heard you say to put that you’re going to drink a bottle of wine every night and stick to that plan. My reaction to that is “holy shit…a bottle of wine per night? I don’t do that!” Therefore….I write in my plan that I either won’t have drinks….or like on a Friday I’ll write that I’ll have 2 drinks and end up having 4. I really want to not want to drink…so that’s what I put in my plan…that I won’t drink. But, then the evening will come and i will have had a hard day, be tired, hubby will ask me if I want one, etc etc etc….excuse, excuse, excuse. I’m just not being honest with myself. Why is it so hard to write down that I’m going to have one Cosmo M-Th? That makes me scared that I’m an alcoholic. No one should want that every night right? So..I put zero…end up having 1….and then I’m mad at myself. I’m not sure what I’m asking you here….I just needed to put it out there. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!