Not Getting Pregnant

My husband and I are trying to get pregnant even though I am at an age that makes it quite unlikely.

C: I did not get pregnant this month
T: I did not correctly plan my life and waited too long to try for a second child
F: Disappointment
A: Beat myself up emotionally, search & find more evidence of my failures, buffer with overspending, isolate myself from friends and family, bottle up emotions and pretend that everything is fine

My intentional model is:
C- same
T: I tried my best and some things are out of my control
F: Compassion
A: Do something that I enjoy, allow myself time to feel disappointment and sadness, express my feelings in safe spaces, allow myself to buy one thing that I really want
R: Cope with compassion and love

Do you have any suggestions? Thank you.