Not getting results

Hi Brooke,
After a year in SCS I find I’m still really struggling with my weight. I have a tremendous amount of knowledge/insight/tools after doing 12 months of scholars and doing 6 weeks of private coaching, but my weight is increasing and I’m not getting the results I want. The part I struggle with is allowing urges and following my protocol. I also am aware that I have a thought error where I beat myself up and feel like a failure. I ask my self “what would I do if I knew what to do” and ask my future self what I did to lose the weight and it doesn’t seem to be as helpful as it once was. I’m having trouble generating the emotion I need to keep at it. Any advice? Thanks so much