Hey!

So I used to be someone who would get up at 4:30am every day and loved it, I would go to the gym, cardio and yoga all before starting work at 8:30am and it was fabulous! I moved in with my BF, and started a new remote job, and even have a gym in my apartment building I can use now which you would think would be perfect but for some reason, I’ve stopped my good habit.

I have been trying to get up at 5:30am everyday to do a workout and follow my schedule. It’s in my calendar for 5:30 – 7am every week day. But I find myself choosing to cuddle over getting up when my alarm goes off. It’s been a consistent theme now for WAY too long and so this week I was like I’m determined I’m gonna do it. But everyday I’m sleeping in until like 7:12 or 7:40 or 7:23 and I’m just so annoyed with myself at this point. I find myself wanting to blame it on the cold weather or how it’s darker now but I know it’s just my thoughts.

I worked with my coach last night and we were like ok maybe I think the thought “It’s going to suck but I’m going to do it anyways” but what I’ve found out is that I don’t even like “think” or I feel like I don’t think in that moment. Like this morning I didn’t even realize my alarm like I slept right through… how does that happen?! I’m feeling tired yet I’m getting at least 8 hours of sleep like I’m going to bed early KNOWING I need to get up at 5:30am. So it’s not lack of sleep. I’ve done these models on them because I’m so upset in the morning I was letting it get to me.

Unintentional:
C – alarm went off and hit snooze, woke up at 7:40am
T – I’m so sick of myself
F – Angry
A – beat myself up, get angry, spin, mope around
R – I’m sick of myself

Intentional Model:
C – alarm went off and hit snooze, woke up at 7:40am
T – No biggy, I still have the rest of the day to get everything done!
F – motivated
A – Commit to new schedule, stick to schedule, show up, get it done
R – Productive day, all things completed

Some other thoughts I’ve put through models with similar results:
“This is ridiculous”
“It shouldn’t be this difficult”
“I’m tired of being tired”

The problem is, these models are getting at, ok afterward when I’m beating myself up, let’s fix that. Which is great however I WANT TO GET UP WHEN MY ALARM GOES OFF…. 🙁 Like, what models do I need to do to make that happen? Help me, please?

Thank you for your time!
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