Not knowing where to start with my dream


I’ve been working at my current company for 3 years now and lately, I’ve been feeling a bit of anxiety around what I want to do with my life. When I used to work at my previous 2 work places, I had a pretty clear roadmap of how my career was going to be laid out. With the current job I have, it’s a lot more flexible and I actually enjoy the freedom I have. But lately, I’m starting to feel that I might need a roadmap and more clear goal.

The only thing I know for sure right now is that in the next 5 years, I want to live abroad.
But I’m not sure where or what I want to be doing. I also think it should be linked with what I’m doing now.
I tried doing some thought download and a model, but it’s not really helping me understand what the next steps are.

C: It’s been 3 years working at my current job. I have a dream of living abroad in 5 years.
T: I’m starting to feel that I need to have a roadmap and a clear goal moving forward.
F: worried
A: Force myself to think and ask people for their experiences and opinions, ruminate and think about what’s right and what’s not right, think about other specific projects to numb out.
R: I’m not even thinking about the goal itself and what I need to do.

I’d like to move on to an intentional model but I’m not sure how I should approach it.
Should I focus on why I want to live abroad? Or what I want to be doing (the type of work)?
I’m thinking about the specific type of work I’m doing right now and trying to connect that with the possibility of living abroad but it’s not really helping me to get anywhere. I think I’m stuck with so many thoughts.

Advice would be greatly appreciated!