Numb to past

I struggled last month with doing the daily assignments…. I did them but I felt lost thinking about my past. I don’t have a lot of childhood memories and even the exercise when we were looking at the day before I was having a hard time coming up with what wasn’t great about the previous day. Am I in denial….. Some days it felt like I was trying to fabricate something that wasn’t good. There were things I didn’t do and ways I wasn’t showing up as the future version of myself but most days I am so grateful for life and excited.
I do want to grow and any insight you have is appreciated.