Number on the Scale

I’m getting stumped on a model:

C: 200 lbs on scale
T: I can’t believe I let this happen
F: Disappointment
A: Pout, judge myself in mirror, don’t eat, don’t exercise, claim body positivity but feel false about it, don’t drink enough water, feel tired and draggy….
R: here’s here I am stumped as it relates back to my T line. Is it: I let this happen? I believe I let this happen?

Stumped. thank you