Oh no panic stage of holiday planning

What the actual fuck happened? A few months ago I did some planning for the holidays thinking I’d be all proactive and stuff and then I was fine, then like all of a sudden thanksgiving is next week and I’m having my family over this weekend to go hunting at our cabin and we’re getting the camper out and I feel like I’m losing my shit.

I feel mad and overwhelmed and resentful.

Maybe it was wishful thinking to think I could bypass this overwhelm and anxiety by planning and “laying the groundwork” a few months ago. Not that I didn’t plan good enough, but like, maybe I have a manual for how the week before thanksgiving should feel, especially when I think I was being good and planning way in advance. I feel such self pity. Help