It honestly took a lot of strength physically and mentally to get this posted. I am having a hard time seeing the results my thoughts are creating.

Additionally this circumstance happens once a month and I’d like to believe that my doctors will be able to find out why this is happening monthly but I don’t believe this. Every time the doctors test for something or give me medication, its a temporary fix. These fixes are not even preventing this circumstance from happening as well, they treat the major headaches I get when I wake up . So since this circumstance keeps happening, I take off work, am not able to see my relatives, and fear I won’t wake up one of these times.

C: I slept 14 hours
T: It happened again, I overslept and missed work
F: Angry
A: I sleep more, I go off protocol, I have a hard to concentrating on eating something on Protocol, I beat myself up with thoughts, I’ll cry
R:?

C: I slept 14 hours
T: I need answers to why this keeps happening, this isn’t ok
F: Angry
A: place blame on following protocol, place blame on doctors not finding the root cause, sleep more
R:?

C: I slept 14 hours
T: I can’t get myself up for work when this happens
F: upset
A: sleep more, I’ll not do things on Protocol or schedule, negative talk, I don’t work, I have less days off to take to spend with relatives
R: ?

C: I slept 14 hours
T: I hope I don’t die in my sleep
F: Scared
A: start searching internet for answers, ill reach out to patents to distract myself from thought, cry, ball up, I’ll refuse to do things on my schedule or Protocol.
R: ?