Owning my time


I’d love your feedback on my models please. As it shows, I get stuck as soon as I try to model it around my business. I’d ultimately like to continue to grow my business but more than that right now I’m so enamoured with the effect I’m noticing from finally “getting” thought work that I’m reluctant to let anything – including business – take time away from me doing that. But I’m okay with that for now. Are my models correct for the ones I’ve completed? Any suggestions for the incomplete one? Thank you!

C I understand my recent behaviour of “I haven’t been owning my intention”
T it feels good to know myself
F relief, good
A Open up to more exploration and evaluation. Enjoy the new skill of doing this more consistently. Notice how I am feeling as I do it
R Reaffirm that “it feels good to (get to) know myself

C I have the thought “I should own my intention” (of spending more time on thought work, noticing and allowing feelings) and spend that time on purpose (rather than “plan” (tell myself and others that I’m blocking time) to work but really spend that time each day on thought work)
T That’s not what I said I’d do and once more I am giving in/not doing the hard thing (of building a business)
F Sad
A Think about other times I’ve given in. Think about what others have told me about doing that. Tell myself it’ll always be this way. Tell myself maybe work/business isn’t what I want and I should own that. Spin a lot, back and forth
R I “give in” to my mind. Don’t do business work. Don’t do my intention (of spending more time on thought work, noticing and allowing feelings) either.

C I have the thought “I should own my intention” (of spending more time on thought work, noticing and allowing feelings) and spend that time on purpose (rather than “plan” (tell myself and others that I’m blocking time) to work but really spend that time each day on thought work)
T I really enjoy thought work and I’m noticing benefits. If I put consistent extra time into it now and solidify my new ability to allow and process my thoughts and feelings, that will benefit all areas of my life – including my business –
F
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R

C I have the thought: I “plan” (tell myself and others that I’m blocking time) to work, but really am spending that time each day on thought work)
T It feels good to notice this and I want to notice more about myself
F Open/allowing
A Stay open and aware of thoughts as they come in. Allow and feel feelings as they come. Congratulate myself for doing this and recognise how it is affecting positive change – and how lack of it before brought the prior results.
R I continue doing this work and I reaffirm to myself that it feels good to notice all this.