Pain over son

My 20 year old son is depressed and is taking a leave from college this semester and living at home. This week, we found out that he has had suicidal thoughts and took him to get an emergency psychiatric evaluation. We are supporting him as much as we can but he is not seeking help additional psychiatric help and we cannot intervene beyond what we have already done because he is an adult.

I cry every day in fear of what will happen. I am showing up as the best mother that I can but I am in deep despair and In fear and sadness over what may happen. One minute I’m fine and then I think of what might happen and cannot stop crying. Right now I am just feeling the sadness and fear when it comes on but I also feel like I’m spinning in it. Do you have any guidance?