I was just at a gathering with someone. We saw lots of people that we have both known for over 2 decades. It was very noticeable to me that many of the people were more focused on and preferred interacting with the person I was with than me. There was more eye contact, body language, more direct conversation with the person I was with even though I was trying to be a part of it too, etc.
I am trying to do my thought work now. One thing I am wondering is how much of it was just my brain scanning for evidence. Also, how is it really that it has nothing to do with me? There really were obvious preferences. I do not want to act as a victim or be selfish. I want to learn how to better think about such. Thanks in advance for your help.