I chose to eat all the sugar and flour this weekend. I acted on every urge and gained 6 pounds in 3 days.
I learnt that it didn’t feel good, it distracted me from everything else, it felt gross, and the more I ate the more urges came. I never felt satisfied.
So now im on protocol again. Im pretty sure I’ll stick to it until next weekend but I’m worried that I might do the same again.
I think the thoughts that led me to eat were about deserving to enjoy the weekend, not having to be tense and restless, having the energy to be cheerful around my family. Eating didn’t actually give me those things.
How do I remember all of this when Saturday comes around again?