I have decided that I’ll be quitting my job this year, sooner rather than later. I’m slacking off at work pretty bad, which I have thoughts about that create the feeling of guilt.

C: I do not commit to and plan my work day and I do not execute
T: I’m going to get caught being a slacker
F: Anxiety
A: I (interestingly) still don’t plan my work day and I don’t execute on anything. I went out to lunch with my friend, I did other non-work related tasks to keep busy, probably to buffer the anxiety.
R: I increase my likelihood of being caught slacking off

There are reasons I don’t plan my day and execute, though. Thoughts like “my customers hate me” or “that is a pointless activity” or “I don’t even want to do this job” run through my head.

C: Desire to plan work tasks and execute
T: My customers hate me
F: Resistance (maybe it’s shame, because I want to “hide” when I think this)
A: I avoid my customers
R: I don’t give my customers good customer service, increasing the likelihood that they’re not happy with me

C: Desire to plan work tasks and execute
T: These activities are stupid
F: Defeated
A: I think about doing things and don’t actually do them
R: I engage in more pointless activities that don’t get me to my goal

C: Desire to plan work tasks and execute
T: I can’t do this job AND grow my business
F: Resistance
A: I do actually nothing. I feel anxiety in my body, I buffer over that, I spin around in my head, I take no actin toward my business or toward my day job. I feel guilty for not doing anything.
R: I don’t do this job and I don’t grow my business

Okay. I think these are all obstacle thoughts.

I think I’d like to work on some “bridges”

T: My customers hate me –> I love my customers (I’ll have to bridge up to this)
T: These activities are stupid –> These activities are the currency to building my own business (this is more believable but still needs to be bridged)
T: I can’t do this job AND grow my business –> This job IS the perfect path to grow my own business, or I love this job and I love my business. OR my job AND my business are in perfect synergy (I like this last one).

Okay I’m going to work on these. I feel better after finding my new intentional thoughts, and I know I need to work on them.

Any insights are appreciated! xo.