Protocol Start and Stop

I lost 60lbs and slowly have gained back 20lbs. I spend a week on protocol and will lose 7lbs only to binge on the weekends. I have created a bad habit of going on and off protocol. I was able to stay consistently on protocol for 7 months so I know I’m capable. I know what to do and my body likes to lose the weight.

I feel so frustrated and find myself searching for why do i keep going off protocol and why can’t I just stay on track? Part of me also feels like this is B.S. and just need to put down the fucking cereal.

I feel at a loss for how to create the commitment I felt before.

Thanks in advance for your help!