I wrote down the thoughts I’m having. I found it very interesting that looking at them from the perspective that they were the reason I didn’t have a relationship was kind of “crazy.” I’ve looked at those same reasons as somehow justified “protection”, when they’ve actually been harmful and destructive. I’ve been harming myself and sabotaging my happiness. This is kinda pissing me off! Where else have I done this in my life?

What are my next steps? Do I use the thought changing daily work we learned in April? and will a model help me with this? Or is there something else I should do that I’m not seeing? Now that I see it I want these thoughts GONE!! One of my thoughts has been I don’t want to be with a man that wants to be with an over weight woman.