The first July call with Brooke brought a concept into focus… “Ah Haaaa”
I put a happy face on things and swallow down what I don’t believe in and must accept (relationships, family, roles, career). Then “chameleon” (pattern behavior after another I admire because I don’t trust myself with the right things to do, the next best thing to do) behavior and decision about what I should do while WHITE KNUCKLING the whole time through daily life. I “cover” the entire thing with PollyAnna happiness and smile because I am a mother, a business partner, a people pleaser, a liar.

But deeply, where my needs aren’t met… where I don’t know what I want… what are my core beliefs…
I feel dry, brittle and about to crack.
I am should-ing all over myself subconsciously and perhaps consciously.

What bubbles up for me is:
REBEL
SELF SABOTAGE, FAILING AHEAD OF TIME
PROCRASTINATION
ANGER
YEARN FOR FAILURE BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE REAL
A lack of integrity with my Self

And of course
ESCAPE (Buffer) DEMANDS from my Self and others

QUESTION 1)When you are framing the past and allowing it as your amazing journey… how much do you first need to sit with it an acknowledge it as it is before “cover”ing it over with a different lens.

QUESTION 2) I’ll start modeling without the pretty feelings(duality). Is there anything else you’d recommend as helping me set my internal compass?