I’m working with my brain wanting to go to why would someone do all this for me…
and I’ve been working through the thought work and getting myself to…

Because I fucking amazing – why wouldn’t they?

There’s some old thoughts or programming that wants to say that its arrogant or it doesn’t account for – Its like I owe people or something – like I just can’t receive it – so I got to here after a ton of thought work and I’m finding how to get somewhere from here – seems like a few thing going on that may be conflated?

The way that I can put this into words isn’t really explaining that. I can sense something underneath this that I’m trying to get at….