I have been dating my boyfriend for about seven years. We live in a house together that we both own and have a dog. I have told him since we first started dating how much I want to be married and to be a mom.

He says it will happen but it just has not happened and I hate that I have zero control of when. I am having a really hard time trying to figure out how I should show up. Because I love him beyond measure but this is really challenging to accept. Especially when his brother proposed to his girlfriend of one year. I think some of my thoughts about that are that it should be me.

I am feeling lots of resentment and jealously. This creates even more guilt for me feeling this because I know I’m choosing to feel this way. So because of all of this I am having a difficult time figuring out how to manage my mind, process some of this, and move forward.

I appreciate any further guidance.