Relationship with Father

I’ve heard it a few times about loving your parents can unlock self-love.

I don’t love my dad. I don’t want to be around him. I hate it when he visits. I hate it when I call my parent’s house, and he picks up the phone. I hate his text messages, but I don’t tell him. I say hi, I’m nice, I text back, as I feel like I have to.

But truly, I don’t want anything to do with him. I love my mom, and they are still together. I have a son that I wouldn’t want to keep away from his grandfather.

I‘m open to the thought that it’s a possibility that I could not hate him and could feel neutral about him. But I… I don’t want to love him.

How can I get started to start feeling neutral? Any workshops in the study vault on this subject?