After listening to Brooke’s Q&A yesterday, I decided to do the relationship with myself. So little background before I give you my model… I left my marriage and 2010 and it’s been 11 s I decided to do the relationship with myself. So little background before I give you my model… I left my marriage and 2010 and. And I’ve had a few relationships along the way but nothing ever lasted. I have been thinking for the last two years that maybe I made the biggest mistake of my life when I left because there’s just no one that’s measured up to what he is. I left because I thought that he only cared about work and I was just like a trophy wife. I felt like I was never good enough for him bc he never wanted to spend quality time with me. He always had to have his posse around, it was never just me and him. My form of comfort and going numb took the shape of Cosmopolitan Martini’s. So I basically be drunk by the time he got home every night just because I didn’t want to feel lonely and numb felt like a better way. And so I gave the marriage up and basically my family, and it’s been a struggle ever since. I do have a relationship with my three girls although it’s a little bit awkward at family get-togethers because of his fiancé and my thoughts toward the regret of leaving my marriage so I tend to either not go or go and drink to get theough it. I do see now how the next opportunity I’m just going to go and let the experience be what it is and not prejudge it so thanks for that …OK so here’s my model and I am just wondering if you can help me to achieve a better model that I can get behind. I want to love and forgive myself bc I can’t keep doing what I’m doing and expect different results.
C- I am alone.
T-I don’t deserve to be loved again bc I broke his heart and this is my karma.
F-sad, lonely, unworthy, not good enough
A-self-loathing self-destructive
R-I don’t even put myself out there to meet anyone to be loved again. I’m withdrawn and reclusive.
Thank you
Theresa