Relationship work Day 27

I am really struggling with the question “how do you want to define and think about your relationship together?”

In this case the relationship is with my son and it is a challenging one for me. The only way I can answer the question is to define how it is for me now. What I WANT to think about it is different than it is. So I hear myself thinking that while I can think about this any way I want, that’s really not how it is. What I want to think is sooo untrue to me, that it seems silly, and I can’t really take the question seriously. I’m not sure how to wrap my head around this and answer the question in a way that is actually useful for me to grow. Help???