So trying to get to the bottom of my protocol chatter and my constant thinking about protocols, I’ve realised the following model exists for me

c food
t i need to control what i put in my body(or else i will become overweight)
f tight, fear
a restrict, constant protocol chatter
r I control my weight from a place of fear/scarcity

How do i let go of the need to control? – my action for so many years. Isn’t a protocol a way to control what one eats? Self imposed rules to eat by? I’m finding it hard to reconcile finding total freedom around food and not wanting to put on weight. Any light you can shed would be helpful. Thanks so much.