I am having a pretty hard time releasing resistance and surrendering to what I’m feeling. I am unhappy in my life. I did an ayahuasca ceremony this weekend and had high hopes, and left disappointed. I wanted to be able to learn to release resistance, but it’s still there.
I don’t feel like I can even fully access the emotion. I just feel discontent and resistance. I keep trying to “fix” myself, which isn’t a thought that serves me.
I am having a really hard time letting go of control. I guess ultimately I still don’t trust that things will work out if I don’t make it happen.
Even when I try to go more deeply into the emotion like Brooke suggests, I just end up feeling stuck. Maybe I need to accept the fact that I feel stuck? Maybe that’s what I’m resisting?