Repetitive unhelpful self talk


Hello,

I’m a mum of 2 bright, energetic young boys aged 5 & 7. I’m brand new to scholars but have listened to the podcast for 6 months or so. I am developing my self awareness. I am noticing that I have constant repetitive thoughts about “I need more support” and “I need a break” from the kids. I frequently feel overwhelmed & frustrated, feeling the need to escape. My self expectations are so high (eg about what kind of childhood I want to give them), the guilt so ever present that I busy myself (buffer?) with cooking, cleaning and running the household instead. I start the day dedicated to spending quality time with them, and at the end of the day I fall into bed bashing myself (not physically!) with guilt that I barely sat with them for 10 minutes & resisted their company for most of the day!!

I have a vision of myself as a robust, fun mum with realistic expectations of myself within family life at peace with myself as a mother.

The path from A to B is so full of emotion I would love a little outside perspective.

Thanks for your time 🙂