reply on model 2 – i would like your input on that

ok i get that there are many reasons why she didn’t pick me.
BUT what if the reason is that she really doesn’t see me as a close friend and does not want me as a bridemaids. it hurts, because i want to be part of that. i feel excluded.
how can i deal with that?

and i could believe that she loves me and i believe she does.
BUT what if her thoughts are not loving towards me? what if i can sense the her feelings and thoughts and they are not LOVE?
that delusional to think then that she loves me

thanks for your feedback!