Resisting Positive Emotion

I’m used to doing TDLs and having to come to terms and accept my negative thoughts and emotions. But this month, I noticed that I also resist my positive emotions! One of my models included “joy” as my dominant feeling and I immediately tried to resist that feeling, thinking I was setting myself up for disappointment or somehow jinxing my future chance at happiness. I’ve become so much more aware of the way I try to buffer away my positive feelings (hope, joy, love, excitement) because I’m scared of feeling them all the way through. The emotional balance exercises have helped me with this because I now know it’s okay to feel both. I’ve been so focused on feeling the negative emotions that it never even occurred to me I wasn’t feeling the positive either! I just wanted to share this with all of you. I thought it was interesting!