Good morning coaches. Did these models and not sure I’m getting the result part. Appreciate as always your input.

UM#1
C: Having conversation with Rose about Rory
T: She’s going to judge him even more than she already does
F: dread
A: ruminate about how I’ll tell her, procrastinate, avoid her, vacillate between telling her or not telling her, do models and TDL
R: I’m judging him???

UM#2
C: Having conversation with Rose about Rory
T: She’s going to feel sorry for or pity me
F: shame
A: vacillate between telling her or not telling her, hide ruminate about the discussion in my head, lose sleep, do models
R: I feel sorry or pity me???

I have struggled with disclosing this vs not disclosing this. Hiding doesn’t feel right for me. I think by me hiding, it keeps me feeling ashamed of what has happened and this is not the emotion I want to have surrounding this and doesn’t allow me to move forward. I have worked through my thoughts and feelings for myself surrounding this event (or at least I think I have) but when I ask myself why I haven’t told anyone about this these models come up for me. Thanks in advance for the advice.