I picked retirement from my current job as my impossible goal for 2018.

Now I’m wondering if I’ve picked the wrong goal. I am really uncomfortable with it because I just don’t believe it would ever be possible – all of my downloads are all reasons it can’t or won’t happen (absent winning the lottery, which I don’t even play.) The whole exercise and everything I’m uncovering around this work just makes me sad.

Should I start over with something that is more motivating? Or should I work through the discomfort and disbelief? It really feels terrible because it’s something that I want badly but don’t believe will ever happen. I’m the financial support for my family and I feel burdened with that responsibility. Husband works in his own consulting business but doesn’t bring home much – and nothing regular.