Run-on model

I did this model and found it helpful, but it’s also unconventional.  I’d love to hear your ideas for how it could function as two separate models.
C: Got email about moving forward with Job application
T: I REALLY want this job by Jan 1.
F (C): Panic
A(T): Think, “I’m not good enough”
(F): Insecure
(A): Don’t reply. Don’t move forward with process
(R): Don’t have job by Jan 1
I like the strong tie I get between the original thought and the ultimate result using my wonky model, but maybe it could reveal something else great as two models?