Scared of the squat rack area at the gym.


I guess my fear with this is that I’m going to put my mat in the wrong place and people are going to think I’m stupid. I guess ultimately I’m not even worried that I’m doing the exercise wrong, I’m concerned that I’ll be in the wrong spot and people will think I’m dumb.

C: planned workout involved using weights that are located in an area where there are many men
T: I don’t know where to put my mat
F: Anxious
A: I procrastinate going to the gym, keep checking the capacity to make sure it’s low, I wander around the area not feeling confident, very trepidatious in my workout. I either don’t go, or I go and don’t enjoy it.
R: I don’t put my mat anywhere

C: planned workout involved using weights that are located in an area where there are many men
T: People are going to look at me and think I’m stupid
F: Scared
A: I procrastinate going to the gym, keep checking the capacity to make sure it’s low, I wander around the area not feeling confident, very trepidatious in my workout. I either don’t go, or I go and don’t enjoy it.
R: I don’t achieve my goals, I don’t grow

What I WANT to do is go to the gym, put my mat down wherever there is space and do my thing. If I put that in the R line…I guess I’d need to believe that I can’t do this wrong. I’m doing it right. No matter where I put my mat is just fine, and if someone tells me I’m doing it wrong I can have my own back. I can see that if someone tells me I’m stupid (which they won’t), the actual problem is that I’m telling MYSELF I’m stupid. For example:

Hypothetical C: Someone at the gym tells me I’m doing my exercise in the wrong spot
T: I’m in the way, taking up too much space (there’s a lot more to explore here….thoughts like “I’m a burden” or “I’m too much” are related to feelings of unworthiness and shame – that’s in here too)
F: Embarrassed
A: Probably move but feel awful about it. Feel like I want to hide. I don’t have my own back
R: I don’t take up my rightful space at the gym (and in the world)

OR..

Hypothetical C: Someone at the gym tells me I’m doing my exercise in the wrong spot
T: Interesting, where SHOULD I be doing the exercise?
F: Open to learn
A: I do my exercise in a different spot
R: I learn about a potentially better way to do an exercise

Well, I’m currently just going to lean into the thought that “it’s okay if I feel embarrassed or self-conscious, I can handle that feeling AND do my workout.”

C: planned workout involved using weights that are located in an area where there are many men
T: it’s okay if I feel embarrassed or self-conscious, I can handle that feeling AND do my workout
F: willing
A: go to the gym, put my mat down, and do my exercise. Feel the feelings of discomfort fully.
R: I handle my feelings and do my workout. I grow.

Open to feedback!!