Seasonal fruit – part 2

I am afraid of making eating fruit in moderation as an option because I don’t believe I can do it. It has always been a challenge for me. I am also afraid of sugar, even natural sugar. I have excluded artificial sugar from my diet for years now, and think that I must exclude natural sugar, too, because it will make me fat. I’m confused and am questioning what is true and what is my story. I have this deep-rooted fear of being overweight since childhood. I have been a little overweight here in there in my life, but felt overweight most of my life, even when the scale showed I was not.